Our day...

Honey today is 29th. This is the day that we met the first time...and also the last time :(. Last month on that day we celebrated our day...and I never can imagine that will be the last time I see you. We said that we'll celebrate every month,we'll come to the restaurant where we met the first time and the coffee shop where our love began...But now we can't do that. I don't want to come there alone :(
My feeling is very bad these days. I miss you like crazy. I feel exhausted. All I feel inside is loneliness and emptiness. I don't know where to go, what to do. I can't focus on my work or anything else. You always come to my memory. And I just cry...
I was very happy with you. For me, have you by my side and be with you is my happiness. I might in a relationship before but I never knew love till there was you. You were my real love. Eventhough time may find me somebody new, you'll always be my greatest love and there is always a special place for you in my heart.
I miss miss miss you!!! I love love love you!!! Millio puszi xxxxxx

Boldog Karácsonyt Drága Bátyám!
Nagyon rossz, hogy nem vagy itt Velünk. Sose telt el karácsony nélküled, mindig mellettem voltál! Nagyon-nagyon sajnálom, hogy nem vagy velünk, hiányzol. A tavalyi karácsony fénypontja az volt számomra, hogy hazjöttél. Idén ez nem adatik meg :( Sose lesz már az igazi a karácsony Nélküled.
Hiányzol!!!

Merry Christmas honey!!! I never thought Christmas will be like this. Today is the most difficult day for me. I can't breathe when I have to face the truth that I lost you. It's too suffer to tolerate.
I dream about you everyday the last 3 days. You know that I miss you so you came to see me in my dream,right? I miss miss miss you!!! I love love love you!!! Millio puszi xxx

Time goes by quickly. It's 3 weeks since you went to the heaven. Lastnight I saw you in my dream. And you were going to leave me. Even in my dream I couldn't keep you by my side.

I was running to the guy who past by me at the airport...coz he looks like you. I know it can't be you but I was still hoping. And when I found him, my tears came out of control.

When I met a Hungarian passenger, I got his passport and all I think of at that time is you. I forgot what I have to do. I just keep looking at the passport and my tears came out. I can't control myself. Every moment you come to my memories, I just cry.

Chirstmas is coming. Everybody is smiling. The whole world is celebrating and everyone is so happy. Except for you and me.

It becomes harder and harder everyday. I thought my life is very easy and I was on the top of the world since you came to my life. You bring me happiness and safeness. My heart overflowed with joy and love. I got stuck on you. I was the happiest girl in the world. But God took you back to the heaven. I collapsed and lost my sense of direction. I feel weak honey. Without you, everything is meaningless. And I just can't seem to move on.

It would have been so good...

... to play with you, to laugh at your jokes, to
listen to your big stories, to learn from you, to see you, to be with you a lot...


But now only this picture will tell me that it was you who gave me that doggy a long time ago.


I am very-very angry with you, Bence, because you promised to come and punch me, and you will never keep your promise!

You were to be part of my life.

I will look after your doggy... :(

HIÁNYZOLl!!!! :(

Még mindig nem hiszem el, hogy ez tényleg megtörtént. Várom, hogy 30.-án haza gyere!!! Éjszakánként álmomban látom, ahogyan a repülőtéren várunk rád és Te kijössz az ajtón a napbarnított arcoddal. :)

Look left, your past is beautiful

The 34th (last) birthday in Saigon

The last journey is today

Today is Bence's funeral in Budapest, Farkashegyi Temeto at 12.45 pm local time. End of his journey. Final peace. Good bye my friend, good bye.

Nagyon hianyzol!!

Honey how are you? Somewhere up there can you hear me? Can you hear that I'm calling you everyday? It's 2 weeks since you left me. Everything happened too fast that I can't believe. I still see your smile, hear your voice and feel you by my side. I know that in physically you'r not with me but in mind you'r with me. We deal that we'll be together for 100 years. We said that we'll always be there for each other. Do you still remember?

I wish I could get angry with somebody about your death. But I know noone wants it happen. I just can get angry with the wind. I wish I could do something to bring you back. I wish I could change my all to take you. I'm willing to do anything honey. You'r all I need. I just want you to be alive. If there were sth wrong w you, I would take care of you and always by your side. You asked me before that do I still love you if you just have 1 arm or 1 leg. And I told you that if you were missing sth, I could be that thing for you. Do you remember honey? Why did you leave me alone here? I wish I could hold you just one more time. I wish I could kiss you just one more time. I wish I could feel you in my arms again. I miss your smile, your laugh and your voice when you tell me that " I miss miss miss you". I miss holding my chubby prince. I miss calling to wake my prince up in the morning. I miss every moment we were together honey. I miss you! I wish it was just a night mare.

I met your brother and your sister. They'r very nice. I felt better when they were here. I went to Dalat with Balazs and my parents. I and Dori spent time together. I took her to our coffee shop and she like it there. And she help me to buy a flowers bride for you on your funeral in Hungary. I wish I could be there. I talked to your mom also. She told me to be strong and try to come there. I'll manage and come there to see you as soon as I can,ok. Wait for me. And remember that I'm always with you and you'r safe eventhought we'r far away.

Nagyon nagyon szeretlek es hianyzol hercegem. Mindig rad gondolok!! Millio puszi az en hercegemnek.

That was what you wrote in the last email you sent to me, with smiles.

I can't believe how could it happen to you Sebestyen Bence? You was a good pilot, a good friend. 

During the long way with you from Dalat to Saigon that night, I wished that was not true. I wished I could hear your voice. I wished we could laugh together again. I wished we could keep talk about sinking Saigon and how to solve out the problems.  You had a great passion for your work and also your life. I'd seen the energy in your eyes and I'd heard the elating in your tone, just some hours ago... Now, you bring them with you to the silent world.

Bence, to me, that wasn't sadness, that was painfull.

I wish I could change the time and I wish I didn't oganize that trip. 

We have your pictures on launch now.

Sebestyen Bence

You stay with us forever.

 

Egy igaz, oszinte barat emlekere

Kedves csaladtagok, baratok, ismerosok!

Ez a blog azzal a cellal jott letre hogy draga baratunk Bence emleket orizzuk es teret adjunk mindenkinek aki szerette, ismerte ot hogy megoszthassa mindannyiunkkal emlekeit, fotoit, videoit, torteneteit, gondolatait Bencerol, Bencevel.
Kerlek benneteket hogy erezzetek magatokenak ezt a feluletet es osszatok meg emlekeiteket, gondolataitokat, erzeseiteket.
Hianyzik nagyon, faj a veszteseg.
34 evet elt.
2007 December 2-an tavozott kozulunk.
Szerettuk mint baratot, tiszteltuk mint embert.

Orok baratsaggal,

P.S.
Saigon, 2007 December 12.

Dear Familly and Friends,

I took the initiative and created this blog im memoriam Bence with the purpose of providing a platform, a common space to share our photos,videos,stories,thoughts,feelings about the tragical loss of our friend.
This space is for all friends and relatives or accuantence of our dear late friend Bence who lost his life on 2nd December 2007 in Dalat, Vietnam.
He was 34 of age.
A warm, talented and most of all HONEST human being.
We loved him as a friend and respected him a lot as a person. We miss you Bence.

Dear All, I strongly invite you all to share whatever you might have about him, from him even few words you had with him a photo any story to tell what keeps us remember HIM.
P.S.
HCMC
12.10.2007